Then I send my thoughts to you and I tell you I am sorry. I have sinned with the unkind wanderings that I have let pass through my mind. But, there are others that tell me 'no, you should do this in such a way, they would not think of your circumstances or outcome'. I do agree that they would not think of my betterment but still I cannot come to be as they are; this does not make things right.
Sometimes God gives us signs that we must move on and often times the signs are not all that pleasant; but we must listen to what we are being told. There is always a reason for all that is and will be; heed the signs. You will be given to from what and whom truly matters.